I Only HaveAt Heart
My Getting Lost*
In his book The Triggering Town:
Lectures and Essays on Poetry and Writing (New York: Norton,
1979), poet and teacher Richard Hugo states that "the true
or valid triggering subject is one in which physical characteristics
or details correspond to attitudes the poet has toward the world
and himself" (5). That being the case, I suspect that someone
reading my four poetry books would conclude that Bob Fink is
schizophrenic.
I have been called an East Texas poet, a West Texas poet, a family poet, a baseball
poet, a Viet Nam poet, a religious poet (once even a Zen Buddhist
poet), a disturbing (or was it disturbed) poet, and a wryly-humorous
poet. Except maybe for the Zen Buddhist, I would acknowledge
each of these labels while admitting that I am none and all of
them. In my book The Tongues of Men and of Angels, I became,
in several of the poems, Saint Paul--the apostle who wrote in
First Corinthians 9:22, "I accommodated myself to people
in all kinds of different situations." Paul did this "so
that by all possible means [he] might bring some to salvation."
I tried to be Saint Paul and try, in turn, to be each persona
in each of my poems so as to understand what the experience /
the conflict in the poem means to the persona. Abilene's
Restored Old Weather Bureau
Because I am a "process" poet, like
an actor getting to know his character, I become the poem's persona
and experience his or her world, confronting and sometimes resolving
the conflict discovered on this journey following the poem's
unmarked path. In the first draft I don't know any more than
the persona about where we're going or what we will or will not
learn when (or if) we arrive at some destination. It often takes
months (sometimes years) of investigative revision to determine
if the trip was valuable. Oh sure, I almost always enjoy the
journey (my favorite poem being the one I'm writing at that time),
but for this experience to be of value to a reader, I've got
to somehow understand what it means. Abilene's
Restored T & P Railroad Station Building
Annie Dillard, in The Writing Life
(New York: HarperPerennial, 1990), admonishes writers to "Push
it. Examine all things intensely and relentlessly. Probe and
search each object in a piece of art. Do not leave it, do not course over
it, as if it were understood, but instead follow it down until
you see it in the mystery of its own specificity and strength"
(78). So, becoming my poems' personae, I have climbed to the
top of a sycamore tree and laughed at my mother below "holding
her apron like a net." I have stood in the batter's box
and taken strike three, frozen by the slider breaking at my knees.
I have been lifted up by angels and tornadoes and clutched my
wrist, counting. I have bowed in the dust, seen myself darkly,
lifted a cup of coffee to the day "survived / to almost
talk about / back home in the states." I have forgotten
my wife in Waxahachie, the Exxon station. I have held my wife
until my breathing "almost matched / her steady pace."
I have sworn "five hundred times" at my dead father,
"I forgive you! I forgive you!" I have begged
forgiveness of my sons. In public places I have laughed
out loud "at nothing . . . nothing at all." I know
it was a good laugh. I hope the poem will make clear why. Abilene's
Restored T & P Railroad Depot
(*allusion to Robert Frost's poem "Directive")
Books:
Twilight Innings: A West Texan on Grace
and Survival. Literary
nonfiction. Lubbock: Texas
Tech University Press, 2006. To order: Amazon.com.
Twilight Innings: A West Texan on Grace and Survival
is one of five finalists in the "Essays" category for
ForeWord Magazine's 2006 Book of the Year Award.
.
Tracking The Morning. Wings Press Poetry Series. San
Antonio: Wings Press, 2005. To order: http://www.wingspress.com/Titles/Tracking_Morning.html
To order: Amazon.com.
Tracking The Morning was one of three finalists for
the 2005 Violet Crown Book Award from the Writers' League of
Texas.

The Tongues of Men and
of Angels. The TTUP Invited Poets Series. Lubbock: Texas Tech UP, 1995. Texas
Tech University Press. To order:
Amazon.com.

The Ghostly Hitchhiker. Corona Poetry Series. San
Antonio: Corona,1989.
Azimuth Points. 1981 Texas Review Poetry Prize
Chapbook. Huntsville: Sam Houston
State University, 1981.
Beyond Where The West
Begins. Limited Edition Poetry Chapbook Commemorating
the Abilene Public Library's 100th Anniversary 1899-1999. Abilene, Texas: Friends Of Abilene Public Library,
1999.
Eleven Edited Poetry
Collections:
Editor, since 1996, of
Texas Tech University Press's Walt McDonald First-Book Series
in Poetry and the Press's Invited Poets Series.
- Poems In The Following
Selected Journals & Magazines:
- America, Borderlands: Texas Poetry
Review, Descant, Gulf Coast, Harvard Magazine, Iron Horse Literary
Review, The Journal of the American Medical Association, Michigan
Quarterly Review, New England Review, Poetry, Poetry Northwest,
Southern Poetry Review, Southwest Review, The Texas Observer,
The Texas Review, TriQuarterly.
- Poems In The Following
Selected Anthologies:
- Anthology of Magazine Verse &
Yearbook of American Poetry: 1986-1988
(Beverly Hills: Monitor Book Company); Baseball: The National
Pastime in Art and Literature (Time Life Books); Hummers,
Knucklers, and Slow Curves: Contemporary Baseball Poems (U
of Illinois P); Inheritance of Light (U of North Texas
P); Is This Forever, Or What: Poems & Paintings from Texas
(New York: Greenwillow Books, an imprint of HarperCollins), Literature:
The Power of Language (Harcourt); Looking For Your Name:
A Collection of Contemporary Poems (New York: Orchard); Odd
Angles of Heaven (Wheaton: Harold Shaw); Poetry: A Longman
Pocket Anthology (Addison Wesley Longman); The Poetry
Anthology, 1912-2002: Ninety Years of America's Most Distinguished
Verse Magazine (Chicago: Ivan R. Dee); The Texas Anthology
(Sam Houston State U); Texas In Poetry: A 150 Year Anthology
(The Center for Texas Studies, U of North Texas); Texas In
Poetry 2 (TCU Press).
- Personal Essays / Literary
Non-Fiction In The Following Periodicals and Anthologies:
- The Baylor Line, Concho River Review,
The Cortland Review, Gloss, IMAGE: Art Faith Mystery, The Iowa
Review, Mississippi Review, New Mexico Humanities Review, River
Teeth, Shadow And Light: Literature And The Life Of Faith (Abilene Christian UP), TEXAS: The Houston
Chronicle Magazine, The Texas Review, Windhover: A Journal
Of Christian Literature.
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